Dream Daisy Bouquet

I am so sorry that I haven’t posted for such a long time. I have been on holiday and also had a lot going on. 

I’m going to have to stop posting for a while. I am not deleting my blog but it’s just the last thing on my mind right now and little things are making me very bitter at the moment. 

I can’t carry on here, because honestly, all of the happy is killing me and I am REALLY struggling every day to not get angry about the littlest things in real life, as selfish as it seems.  

I will be back, I’m just not sure when. 

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So my mum fell out with my Grandad a few years ago. I stand by her decision because he was taking advantage of her and, at the same time, saying nasty things to, and about, her. One Saturday afternoon, it all came to a head and my mum and I left my grandad’s house and she never went back.

My grandad is my last grandparent, and although he brought it on himself, I feel terrible that he is on his own. He still sees my aunties and uncles. I have seen him once or twice since the fallout.

My problem is that as soon as I started to plan my wedding, I have been thinking about what I would do about my Grandad and then my mum made the decision for me.

I was at my mum and dad’s the other day and my dad asked what I was going to do about my Grandad. I think he did it in front of my mum on purpose so we could figure out where we stand. My mum, without missing a beat said that if he goes she doesn’t. 

With the wedding being in Wales, it’s unlikely that he would even want to come, and leave the dog at home. Also, I know he would be a nightmare and probably just get drunk and get upset because he gets very upset about people he’s lost. 

I just feel awful. He has given us some money towards the wedding and I just feel terrible. He is my only grandparent and I kind of want him there. Although, I’m not sure if that’s just because it might feel a little more like my nan is there. 

I guess I will just have to see how it goes for now. 

On a more positive note. I am going to Rhodes, Greece on Saturday, for two weeks. I am so excited to get away from everything for a couple of weeks and just stop thinking for a minute.